April Showers

April showers may bring flowers
So if I cry on my birthday, do I chalk it up as hurting or healing?
Chasing dreams feels like punching hurricane walls
A fireball fantasy that words of affirmation truly help a plant thrive
“Grow, you first-things-last underwatered earthling!”
I’m shedding and molting, dropping tears on polaroids
When do I get to stop growing, and where can I pick up my flowers?